Saying Goodbye

Past couple of weeks have not been my favorite, but november is just around the corner and it's sure to be a better month then this one. There is just so much I want to write about but simply not enough time in this day to write everything. Lately I constantly feel like I'm looking for a way out. I'm not hiding from things, but I'm running away from a lot. I don't want to deal with what feelings are inside of me, and truthfully, it's a broken heart. I haven't experienced such confusion in a long time, and I am truly exhausted from thinking and feeling.  I try to be kind, but it hasn't done me well. I don't know how to just let go of love but I do know how badly it hurts when the person you loved let goes of you. And that is what I'm experiencing. It can be shocking how things can change, and how somebody you once knew so well could turn out to be someone completely different or even how you yourself can change in ways you didn't realize. However, that is life and we've got to accept what comes our way no matter how much we don't want to deal with it. Love shouldn't hurt, and it's been hurting me.  It's time for me to say goodbye to a chapter in my life, and believe that God will only provide good things to come.

"Some people never get to touch their dreams. Never get to know what that feels like. Never find that thing they love or get to do it for a living. Is it a tragedy to get that taken away from you? No. The tragedy would be to lie awake at night wondering what if."

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  1. Its about time. :)

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  2. It never fails to amaze me how alone one can feel during times of hardship, struggle, and confusion, but the silver lining through all the madness is remembering that someone out there is feeling, or maybe blogging, about the same thing/the way you feel. It just shows the power of God and is reassurance that while he is always with us, he never leaves us without another. I hope and pray you have found that love that doesn't hurt; love that is pure, real, kind, love that is noticed by everyone, and the love that you can't imagine living without. While this is obviously an old post, thank you for your kind words during my time of hurting and struggle.

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